I JUST REALIZED. That I'm going to be seventeen this year. SEVENTEEN. My mum used to tell me how small I was and how I only drank soy milk when I was young. I lived on this world for almost seventeen years. Who knows? After finishing up school, I may end up studying far away from home. Marry the boy I love. Have two, three or more kids. WHO KNOWS right? And by then I would forget everything that has happened to me.

I can list a few things that I will miss dearly. Such as how my Tokteh will always wake me up for Subuh prayers and babble about how I never tidy up my bed. How my mother and I talk about my future in the car on the way to school, and how she would always know what was best for me. What type of food I like, what kind of occupation that would be suitable for someone of my traits. My Dad always nagging about the bills, asking me to not waste electricity by sitting at the laptop all day.

Or how my sister, Siti, would yell at me in the morning for waking her up from her deep slumber. How my siblings would fight over fried egg. My little sisters, Anis and Hajar playing 'masak-masak' outside my room (and never clean up after). Running around searching for underwear while 'berkemban'-ing in my kain batik and towel. Telling Muizz to get up early cos' we have to take the same trips together to school.

My best friends. Fake friends. Puteri who has been with me through thick and thin. Backstabbing friends that help me learn valuable lessons. Friends who had my back. Going to school trips with my friends. Cam-whoring with them. Fought with them. Cried with them. Laughed with them. Fangirled with them.

My first boyfriend in which our relationship only lasted about 8 hours lol. I didn't even like him! My first love. How he always broke my heart and Aiman was the one who listened to me. Heart break. Suddenly fell in love with Aiman. Stayed up with him til dawn on Yahoo! Messenger. Our 2 year and still going on relationship.

These are a few things which I cherish the memories and will never ever forget. And suddenly realizing that the people I love and care will one day leave me, either for a while or permanently, makes me cry and wonder if I had the chance to reverse time and relive these memories, I would. But life moves on. You just have to make these special moments worth it.

Labels: I feel like crying, Life, Memories, Ugh